Are you looking for attention or seeking connection?
he asks gently
Dang it, Jesus
Ain’t that the truth

Suddenly, I am humbled to see all the ways I looked for attention
in role-assuming
care-taking
creating conflict for any type of intimacy

In the end, it was unintentionally for attention

Consider, he urged,
where have you received attention in the past
and mistook it for
connection?

What would it look like to release this confused desire
and instead move toward experiencing goodness?

And so, I go forward
paying mind to my motivation
to seek connection
the kind that satisfies
– rich and real –
like Harvest’s first bounty
tasting of
soul-nourishment
and
abundant Life.

BJP